||[24 Nov 2011|04:11pm]
There's a bridge in this city, which holds the
occasional rush of cars, sometimes trucks;
stop-go traffic under sunlight, and
when it darkens there’s nothing but
high adrenaline, orange lights,
hums and groans of old motors,
at just the right hour, clamorous,
but mostly, there's just speed.
I once threw all 98 pounds
of self-loathed, knotted-hair
in front of nothing,
it was nighttime
on this bridge, I just
chose the wrong second,
the wrong night, the wrong time
but the leap before pavement
the scrapes on my shoulder,
the blood in my eyes,
tired me anyway; I closed my eyes,
and there was
nothing - and -
With ash in my hair and smoke in my eyes
and not much else but the vibrations of daytime,
I sit curled up beneath this bridge
not really waiting for anything in particular.
||[02 Mar 2009|01:57am]
[Unknown LJ tag]
Would you rather marry a football player or a baseball player?
Does the last person you kissed care about you?
If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
What are you doing this weekend?
just ended, unfortunately
Will you be sleeping alone tonight?
yes i will
Who'd you last give your number to?
Something you wish you would have done this year but didn't?
Excited about anything right now?
graduating, turning eighteen
What are you listening to right now?
Do you wear glasses?
only when i'm not in my contacts
What is wrong with you right now?
i was stupid enough to read something i shouldn't have and now i'm depressed and missing the past
Is there someone you should hate, but you can't?
oh god yes
Are you a forgiving person?
i try to be, i feel i've been rather forgiving in this situation
How do you feel about changes?
necessary but painful
Is it easy for someone to make you smile?
they're often forced
Did you have any unread text messages this morning when you woke up?
Ever made out on a rooftop?
don't think so
What are you initials?
Would you rather your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile?
smile, because i don't think people have ugly eyes
Is there a difference between love and in love?
Do you think age matters in relationships?
Are you tired?
Who did you hang out with yesterday?
matt, staci, kevin, greg, adam
Were you happy when you woke up today?
Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
When is your birthday?
What are you doing right now?
Biggest annoyance right now?
being fucking pathetic
What color is your hair?
Whats your favorite beverage?
What do you look forward to in the next 3 months?
What's something you really want right now, be honest?
i want to love & be loved. i want apologies.
Can you walk into a room full of strangers and maintain your confidence?
not unless they were all strangers to each other too
Whens the last time you cried?
Has someone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
yeah fucking asshole
When was the last time you were told you were amazing?
i don't know. it's sort of depressing
What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
What are you thinking about right now?
about having a cigarette
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
yeah... he used to say i had big ole eyes
If you just drank 15 beers, what would you be doing?
i'd be happier than fucking this
When is the next time you will kiss someone?
Anything you would change about your life right now?
that i could not list on two hands
Last person you talked to in person, other than family?
Are you mad at someone right now?
Do you believe what goes around comes around?
no because then things would be fucking cool
Do you believe exes can really ever be "just friends"?
yeah if they allow it to happen
What smells better, gasoline or permanent markers?
gasoline, oh man it's my favorite smell
Been to a concert lately?
last one was amanda palmer
Has a boy/girl called you babe or baby in the past two days?
does 'sweetheart' count?
Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
Last tv show you watched?
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
What's something that can always make you feel better?
Did your parents spoil you as a child?
How's your heart lately?
Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?
pretty heartbroken tbh.
Why do you think so many people cheat on their bf/gf?
because they're stupid.
Is it hard for you to get over someone?
i wish i knew why
Whats on your schedule for tomorrow?
You're stuck on an elevator with the person you've fallen the hardest for?
oh god i don't even know
When someone says "we need to talk", what do you think?
"what did i do now"
Have you fell asleep in someones arms?
yeah. wow this is a depressing survey :p
What are two of your favorite places to eat?
uhm biagi's & big bowl
What were you doing at 9:59 PM on Friday night?
i was at chili's
Is your bedroom window open?
What were you doing at midnight last night?
Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
yeah the right side, but my bed's small, so...
What are you mad about right now?
everyone that exists.
What did you dress up as for Halloween?
What does your last text message in your inbox say?
Something you just don't understand?
Has anyone told you they missed you lately?
Are you afraid of needles?
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
probably not... what a terrible thought
Last awkward moment?
reading that fucking e-mail
What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
watched some high-quality television.
Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
no no no
Have you ever tried your hardest, then got disappointed later on?
countless times, mang